At the 5:21 mark, Ikenna Azuike started reiterating things I continuously tell myself; follow your passion. I may be struggling financially, but I know that I am in love with all of my archiving, community organizing, (un)learning, and sharing. I have never been bored and will only crave for more as I grow older. When I'm told that my 'extracurricular activities' are a waste of time, I use those harmful words as a motivation - I feed my monstrous drive with negatives in order to show people they are wrong.
Right after check-in Catherine introduced us to the concept of muse and ego. With artists our muse is also known as our intuition - where we trust our instincts and create whatever is necessary in the moment. The ego often hinders the creative spirit of the muse by re-enforcing socialized norms and rules. The activity required us to be vulnerable, make eye-contact one at a time with other participants then bust out a movement we were feeling in that particular moment. We did this three times to three different songs and I realized my ego is hella dominant. Simply "going with the flow" and "trusting my intuition" was tough for me - I was afraid of embarrasing myself by making the wrong type of movement. Thankfully, we will be doing two more workshops in the upcoming weeks, so I can learn how to quiet my screaming ego.