"The trees are about to show us how lovely it is to let the dead things go." - anonymous
Introspection is harder than I thought.
Summer ended and BAM, fall chaos. Everyone is back to routines (such as school and work), folks start scrambling over deadlines, and the feeling of relaxation is squelched. I felt like I was a statue standing in the way of everyone else who was running around. Were you also a statue or were you an eager beaver?
To be honest, I still had a variety of projects and commitments that I couldn't let go of (my capricorn work ethic fuels this). But due to an inconsistent income stream and being mindful of how I spent my time, I was indoors a lot. I was also working through the lessons of mercury in retrograde
- so my early fall days were spent meditating, crying, researching, and reflecting. I felt isolated and quite lost but I had amazing folks to help guide me and I am forever grateful for their presence. After clearing a lot of heavy and negative energy I now feel a shift towards using my heart more (instead of only using my head) and letting go of what I can't control; trusting that I will be safe and cared for by source/creator.
Now that November is here, I feel new - rejuvenated. Filled with energy to do more but with intentional patience, waiting for the universe to send me signs.